Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Lately, my girlfriend has been very petulant concerning my incessant conversations about the alteration in my medicine and how my brain isn't adjusted to me being on the 40 mg of Geodon. Recently, I started taking 40 mg of Geodon because the 60 mg of Geodon was too exhausting for me to take, so I decided to get a refill for the 40 mg of Geodon. I've been on 40 mg of Geodon for approximately 10 days now and I'm beginning to realize that I'm becoming acquainted with the current dose. Today, I am noticing that I am communicating faster and that I'm verbalizing with expediency and the continual discussions regarding my medicine and how it's effecting my cognition with my girlfriend is triggering problems between us and she is growing impatient with my querulous topics regarding the status of my mental health.

My cognition seems to be ameliorating over time. Cathy, my friend, says that this modification in my medicine will take approximately 2 weeks for me to become used to the effects of this change.

I love my girlfriend with all of my heart and I cherish every gleam of mesmerizing beauty that is manifested within her perfection, and her breathtaking majesty is beyond pristine and I am effusively infatuated with her every facade and her voice sounds like a beautiful melody; continually playing its euphonious sounds in such a mellifluous manner that it never grows vapid and my desire to converse about fun things with her never falters within me, as I always desire to create happiness for my girlfriend in every imaginable way. My girlfriend deserves extreme happiness.

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Last night, I was conversing with my girlfriend and relaying to her myriad things and I was wanting her to listen to a clip from the Shining where Jack Nicholson has a tantrum when his wife Wendy came in the main lobby while he was writing on his typewriter. I was expressing to my girlfriend that I thought Jack Nicholson's hostility and his mannerisms in that particular scene were extremely hilarious and I loved the ending where Jack Nicholson said, "you can start right now by getting the fuck out of here", and I shared a short laugh with my girlfriend after allowing her to listen to it.

My girlfriend told me that Jack Nicholson's line during that scene was almost identical to a scene from As Good as It Gets when Nicholson confronts his gay neighbor.

My girlfriend told me to record our conversations whenever I converse with her. Yesterday, she was expressing that I was suffering from pressure of speech and that my speech seems rather frenzied. Recently, I decreased my Geodon to 40mg until I see my psychiatrist next month. I hope she approves of this alteration in my medication because I feel more energetic and robust.

After recording our conversations between me and my girlfriend, I noticed that I seemed rather petulant and sort of truculent with my speech. It's the inflection of how I'm conversing with her and I seem rather annoyed because it seems like I want to dominate the conversation, and any form of interruptions induced by girlfriend really seems to create tension.

I think the best approach to handle this is to allow my girlfriend do most of the talking and I should talk slower. If I say things extremely fast, my voice seems extremely belligerent, so to mitigate this factor, talking slower would help.

I love my girlfriend with all my heart and I want what's best for her in every way imaginable.

Monday, March 21, 2016

My mesmerizing girlfriend, Rachael, has been in a relationship with me for approximately a year and 3 months, and I love her dearly due to her marvelous facades and her breathtaking display of perfection.

Her body is beyond pristine and her intelligence and her interests never ceases to amaze me.

Her fautless attributes drives me wild and induces the galvanization of my lubricious passions that I hold for her.

Last night, I wanted to verbalize to my girlfriend and I desired to hold an intellectual conversation with her, but because of the complications induced by my medicine (my medicine makes me extremely tired and causes a mild case of alogia (poverty of speech), I felt annoyed by the perturbation in my linguistic skills.

I understand my girlfriend desires intellectual and fun conversations, but because of the side effects of my medicine, that arduous task of trying to have fun in our conversations seems like formidable task, because there's limited things for me to say.

I love her so much that I desperately want what's best for her in every way and I want to make her have bliss in our comradeship.

Monday, March 14, 2016

My girlfriend seems extremely amorous lately, and she's been displaying incessant romantic gestures, leaving me contrite.

My girlfriend has been flashing her breasts and engaging in countless sexual rendezvous with me and she's been very kissy for the past week, relaying in myriad ways how much she loves me and how she wants me to "take her".

The erections I receive and the pleasure that I'm experiencing is beyond ethereal, and the countless ways in which she excites me never grows old.

Her pristine breasts and her angelic visage is always galvanizing my libido and always stimulating my innermost desires that I have for her, and the way she exposes her bare butt, signalling that she's sexually receptive and in a Lordosis position, ready to be penetrated and ready to be slapped on her bare butt, signals that she's crazy for me and this leaves me feeling hornier than a school boy and I feel young again when her behavior is full of amatory.

Ever since I augmented the dose of my medication- an Antipsychotic I take to quell unnerving feelings of paranoia (I have Borderline Personality Disorder), my girlfriend has been behaving in a salacious manner.

Lately, my girlfriend is the exemplar of every guy's fantasy.

She no longer seems petulant and she seems rather patient with me.

Yesterday, I had a minor panic attack and I accidently made my girlfriend upset with my impulsivity. I told her I was sorry and yesterday she wasn't as amorous and I completely understand why, so I guess that's payback for my belligerent behavior,