Last night, I was conversing with my girlfriend and relaying to her myriad things and I was wanting her to listen to a clip from the Shining where Jack Nicholson has a tantrum when his wife Wendy came in the main lobby while he was writing on his typewriter. I was expressing to my girlfriend that I thought Jack Nicholson's hostility and his mannerisms in that particular scene were extremely hilarious and I loved the ending where Jack Nicholson said, "you can start right now by getting the fuck out of here", and I shared a short laugh with my girlfriend after allowing her to listen to it.

My girlfriend told me that Jack Nicholson's line during that scene was almost identical to a scene from As Good as It Gets when Nicholson confronts his gay neighbor.

My girlfriend told me to record our conversations whenever I converse with her. Yesterday, she was expressing that I was suffering from pressure of speech and that my speech seems rather frenzied. Recently, I decreased my Geodon to 40mg until I see my psychiatrist next month. I hope she approves of this alteration in my medication because I feel more energetic and robust.

After recording our conversations between me and my girlfriend, I noticed that I seemed rather petulant and sort of truculent with my speech. It's the inflection of how I'm conversing with her and I seem rather annoyed because it seems like I want to dominate the conversation, and any form of interruptions induced by girlfriend really seems to create tension.

I think the best approach to handle this is to allow my girlfriend do most of the talking and I should talk slower. If I say things extremely fast, my voice seems extremely belligerent, so to mitigate this factor, talking slower would help.

I love my girlfriend with all my heart and I want what's best for her in every way imaginable.